On...... I'm too tired.

Getting a hair cut Thursday.
I'm mildly excited, despite how shallow that can make me.
Along with shedding a few inches of hair,
I think I will also dispose of my guilt.

I'm always a changing person, right?
The only thing that remains constant with me
Is my never-ending ability to change, right?
Hmm. Maybe it's time for a visable change, too.

Life, liberty, and the pursuit of "happiness."
Also known as property.

No. I'm pursuing real happiness.

In a tough situation lately, if you haven't noticed,
Although I think that's PMS (seeing as I keep finding so many things to say).
Well, I think this is my chance to show how much I really have changed
And to put my principles into action.

This situation.... Is merely that.
Who gives a damn? Of course I do.
But I mean.
This time.
I'm going to do my best to MAKE things better for myself.
Not hope. Make.
Of course, thinking about it this much blows it out of proportion, but hey.
I'm not saying I don't want to spend time thinking about it.
"The best way out is always through" -Robert Frost.
That's all. It's better than distractions.
Although sometimes all we need is cheeriness....

Things have gotten to be so much that I can't just be happy anymore.
It's when the unsettling events of the past overcome present happiness that you must go through it, and not around it.
And that is perfectly OKAY.

It's never wrong to focus on yourself,
To better yourself
In order to put your best face forward to others.
It's not selfish in the least bit, because
Once it's over, you can go back to being happy.

The problem arises when there's always a problem,
And you create problems just to have them.
Of course there's going to be problems every now and then,
But well.


In the end, this is still just a situation.
I'll go through it, and then be done with it
And Then I Won't Remember It Anymore.

I keep having epiphanies! I don't think I spelled that right.
But I'm too tired and I don't think I'm even making sense anymore.
Didn't mean to write this much.
I shhhhhhouuuuuld type out my new 'story' tomorrow. :)