On Being Honest.

God fucking dammit.

I'm sorry if I present my views in a way that seems harsh. I'm sorry if it seems like I think I'm hot shit, and everyone else is just shit. The cold kind. Or whatever.

I'm really sorry for being honest.

Maybe I should just be incredibly nice all the time.
I kind of generally am nice in my interactions with people.
Within getting bolder, I am growing kinder, and maybe a little more able to express gratitude towards strangers, I hope.

However, within getting bolder, I am learning to stand up for myself. To set standards for myself. Which requires being angry. A lot more, I have been able to say, "I know me more than anyone else. How can I let anyone else tell ME who I am then?!" Which, I think is a fair point.
So, standards. I used to not have any. And now I decided I want to have high standards, because I believe I am a special person. To be HONEST, I don't believe I am going to find what I'm looking for at a community college, and I don't believe it's the right time in my life to be looking for someone to love anyway.

I suppose I should just keep my views to myself, because it's too hard to explain/prove myself, and I don't think I need to. And I suppose I should try to hide all this anger and frustration I feel towards my surroundings. And just be pleasant.

Okay, let's start now.