Jodie.

"'Cos I keep remembering the day that you said you might go crazy if you spent one more minute with me. I've been thinking 'bout those days, and I don't know, Is one more minute gonna kill you now?"

I don't want to love anyone, in that way. I don't want to have a crush. It's pointless and a waste of energy- energy that could be put forth into things that will last. It just makes me feel so alive...

I have found though, that I'm capable of finding something to love in everyone (some more than others). So rather than falling for the first person that sparks my interest or tickles my fancy, I endeavor to have an ideal. Love will come to me in the form of the person who wishes to spend their life in the same way that I choose to spend mine. And not because I like them and they like me and desire to follow me where ever I go. No, I'm quite certain that either I will find someone that shares my goals in life and who will be the Pierre to my Marie, or I will have no partner and no soulmate. Either way, I think I'll be fine.

But that's just how I feel today. I kind of feel like every day I'm a completely different person than the one I was the day before. I am becoming better at expressing myself, that is for sure. I'm just tired of using the same old words to do it.

I need new Ideas and Inspiration.

"And I don't know but I am trying to let you go, but I can't cut so well these strings I have around my neck. I'm trying to let you know, trying to let you know, I'm doing this by myself."