Always Ten Feet Tall

You're a great person, and I've said I'm not going to talk you down to make myself feel better about what I did to you.

But....

You tell me you're not close with anyone anymore. I can't really tell, but I don't think you ever were. Maybe... It kills me to say this but... Maybe if you actually cared more about people than about your possessions...

I mean I know you cared about me, I know you care about people. But you never do anything for them really. You never show it unless you're trying to get something for yourself.

Take our relationship out of the picture, but focus on your friendships for a second.

You can talk on hours about how you want to live in a nice house, in a nice place, with nice things. You can see pictures of tropical places and swoon and you can spend hours in the store looking at furnature.

It's great that you like these things.
But do you ever think about anything besides yourself, and the THINGS you want?
What about all the great people around you? There are so many talented people in your class, and you've had all these years to get to know them and.... what do you have to show for it?

I mean, I know you better than anyone else and I know you have a hard time showing your emotions (to people other than me...). I understand, I swear. I just think when you're lonely, maybe you should think about who you care about, and how to let them know.

I know you're hurting right now, and I'm really sorry. Haha, you're never going to read this.
I'm just trying to get it off my mind. This doesn't really fit in with all my other blogs, but I don't care. It's my thoughts.